Pondering...

We've all done it at least one point in time in our lives. Asking ourselves the question of "what if?". Lately there have been a lot of those kinds of questions in my life. "What if I'd paid more attention in class?" "What if I took that full ride scholarship?" "What if I was still in California?". So many questions run throughout my mind about all the different possibilities that could happen or what has happened. I've been thinking a lot about where I would like to be in ten years. I come up with ridiculous ideas and outlandish dreams of one day being something, or someone that will be well known in history. My current fascination is becoming a doctor, whether that be in pediatrics, or just your basic family practice. I'm not sure which direction I'd go.

I often doubt my capabilities and determination about actually going to school and getting my degree. My biggest problem right now is that I don't know if I'm just fantasizing about someone else's dream, my husband's. He has known for the longest time that he wants to be a doctor. He loves medicine and wants to be surrounded by it, he wants to help and do some good in this world. I've always been passionate about helping people, and making them feel better as well. Now does that mean that I should become a doctor? No, I know that there are numerous other ways that I could fulfill my need to help others. I've always considered teaching, I wouldn't mind being a science teacher in high school. I would be that one teacher that seems very ADD and "out there", but I would make the classes fun and entertaining. I think thats the best way to learn, it was always like that for me. I had many boring teachers, and my grades showed that haha. All the classes that seemed humdrum I didn't o well in, the classes that I had loud, fun, and exciting teachers I always had good grades in those classes. I would want to be that kind of teacher.

So my questions are still buzzing around in my brain, "What if I become a doctor?" "What if I become a teahcer?"......Or there is another question that I can't seem to shake, "What if I become a stay at home mom?"! Hahaha, oh boy!

Well I suppose thats enough ranting for the day, I still have a lot of errands to run. EEP! Lol, Peace Out!

Ranting...As Usual

I've noticed lately that it seems my days are going by alot faster than usual. I feel as if I drifting into a daze and waiting for something exciting to happen. I'm waiting on my life to begin, but the problem is that my life has begun, and I can see it passing by. I need to get out of this dream world and enter into reality. I need to get my shit going with school, I need to get some where. Right now I have a wonderful loving husband and three crazy cats, so I'm not saying that my life sucks. I love what I've got right now, but I would like more to show for myself, in my case I want a good education...and something to look forward to. Like having a career that I love, and starting a family(well a bigger one anyway) with Robbie. So I will stop whining, for now hahaha, and get something done for once.

I know!! I'll do some research on Washington?! Sounds good to me, Rob and I are actually seriously considering moving there. Thats a big difference compared to Hawaii. Going from sunny paradise to...well Washington hahaha. UW is a great college to go to, Rob is thinking of going there for undergrad and maybe med school. Of course he can be a little ADD some times so he may change his mind and decide to go to Maryland! Eeek, I thought Washington sounded cold lol. There is a great military medical school up there, thats why he would want to go haha (He's not that ADD). Anyway, back to Washington. I just want to get more info about the schools, what kinds of things are there as far as jobs go. Also something to amuse me, I should probably start painting again. Painting would always entertain me. That, and it was a good way for me to vent. I actually have one of my first oil paintings hanging up in my living room, I absolutely love it :)

Well I'll leave you guys with a question, if you had to move to Washington, what would you do for entertainment, and what type of job would you want?

Thanks for reading, Peace Out! <3